July 18, 2009

Another shitty day!! Just like last Saturday. Ugh!!! I am wondering if it is going to be like every Saturday to be constipated. I think it is worse than having diarrhea. Felt like giving a birth to a bunch of bricks. I was counting pennies before putting them in the coin rolls and saved pennies with wheat symbols for the future. I was also having an hour of self-pity by sitting outside staring at nothing. Mind does great things, eh? Creative imaginations were in the making. With clear conscious, I was naming the shapes of the clouds in the blue sky. The frog, a goldfish with bug eyes and belly and a head of chicken were the shapes I saw in the fluffy and white clouds passing by. I rarely did that only whenever I am in a unique situation that’d change/affect the ways of thinking, emotions and mental. I was exploring the world around me with new eyes and heightened sensory. Vivid colors, gentle ripple of the bay’s tide, birds, seagulls, bees, dragonflies and hummingbirds flying all around me. Bright colored flowers are almost about to bloom fully. I seemed to be having some kind of spiritual transformation. It was telling me that I will be definitely okay and that everything will go beautifully whether I’d have good and bad days in ahead of me.